Did you ever do something that you thought would be good for your family, but as time goes by it starts to tarnish and it actually begins to be detrimental to your family and starts to wear on you also. Now I have always been a bit of a night owl, I have always been
able to be up late going to sleep sometimes as late as 3 or 4 in the morning and getting up the next day and functioning at or above par. This has come in very handy especially with our 7 kids, being able to burn the midnight oil if they were fussy or if my wife needed a good night sleep. I am no hero but there is something nice about sitting up with your kids watching a late baseball game or a particularly good movie, or reading them a story until they crashed in my lap on the recliner with me following soon after, waking up a few hours later with a stiff neck and sore ankles ( long legs feet always hand over the foot rest of the recliners) and crawling off to bed.
About a month ago I agreed to start working the second shift at my job, a little more money and a ton less BS than the day shift. And the quiet, oh how I love the quiet. I do my job, listen to my pod casts, and the 8 hours were flying by until the new school year started, and all of the kids are out of the house by 8:30 am and I get to take a nap, but I am finding it harder to get up and get going on the projects I have planned. I even skipped a job interview today, I hope I will be able to reschedule it but if not, shame on me. But the biggest issue is my kids, they miss me and I miss them so much it hurts. Now 4 of my kids at home now have Autism like I have explained before, and they don't really understand why I am not here just that I am not here. And it is really really putting a hurt on my wife. These are things that I just can not abide with, so In the future you will find that I will either be back on first shift at my current job or I will be with a different company. Please keep me in your prayers while I discern what path God wants me to follow, and thanks.
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