Thursday, September 16, 2010

Second shift, second thoughts...

Did you ever do something that you thought would be good for your family, but as time goes by it starts to tarnish and it actually begins to be detrimental to your family and starts to wear on you also. Now I have always been a bit of a night owl, I have always been

able to be up late going to sleep sometimes as late as 3 or 4 in the morning and getting up the next day and functioning at or above par. This has come in very handy especially with our 7 kids, being able to burn the midnight oil if they were fussy or if my wife needed a good night sleep. I am no hero but there is something nice about sitting up with your kids watching a late baseball game or a particularly good movie, or reading them a story until they crashed in my lap on the recliner with me following soon after, waking up a few hours later with a stiff neck and sore ankles ( long legs feet always hand over the foot rest of the recliners) and crawling off to bed.

About a month ago I agreed to start working the second shift at my job, a little more money and a ton less BS than the day shift. And the quiet, oh how I love the quiet. I do my job, listen to my pod casts, and the 8 hours were flying by until the new school year started, and all of the kids are out of the house by 8:30 am and I get to take a nap, but I am finding it harder to get up and get going on the projects I have planned. I even skipped a job interview today, I hope I will be able to reschedule it but if not, shame on me. But the biggest issue is my kids, they miss me and I miss them so much it hurts. Now 4 of my kids at home now have Autism like I have explained before, and they don't really understand why I am not here just that I am not here. And it is really really putting a hurt on my wife. These are things that I just can not abide with, so In the future you will find that I will either be back on first shift at my current job or I will be with a different company. Please keep me in your prayers while I discern what path God wants me to follow, and thanks.

Saturday, September 4, 2010


I know it is not fall yet but my 9 year old Peter,ever the observant one, has declared it officially fall because it is September. This is also while he is stripping down to his skivvies and asking to go in the pool, which he did at least 4 times today. Now I know that with his incredible memory Pete will go places, but currently I am ever surprised at what the boy comes out with. He will make wonderfully cute comments like "now I can think like a girl" from The Fairly Odd Parents cartoon, as we are walking into a store. But tonight he just once again blew my doors off by asking me a question when I came home for dinner. I was at this computer looking up something for my wife Lynn, and while I was searching I brought up my Itunes and checked for new podcasts, he walked over to me and asked if I was looking for "have mercy on us, and on the whole world". Now I have 2 Divine Mercy pod casts in my Itunes feed, but he does not know that the line comes from the chaplet. I did once have EWTN on when they were showing some of their children's programming and I think one of the shows was about the Divine Mercy, but.... that was 5 months ago. I do know if you walk into my house and say" For the sake of His sorrowful Passion" you will get the response " Have mercy on us and the whole world". Now I have been growing in my devotion to the Divine Mercy from Jesus through St Faustina and will be looking for ways to bring it further into my home. As St. Faustina said "Jesus I trust in You."
Have a nice Labor day every one, we are off to my parents house to celebrate their anniversary.